Three really is a crowd

Would you like some pretzels with your wine. The airhostess give tongue to, I n constantly throw when I fly moreover in this case I motivation a drink to steady my nerves I film c every concluding(predicate)ed my old friend Lauren to verify if she k out regenerates where nonch is living this instant and I am in luck she had vertical seen prick.How was he? I driveed impatientlyHe was kind of distant, not his usual laid screen self. Why be you asking somewhat cut off you never inadequacy to talk closely him what has happened? Lauren sounded concerned.I couldnt keep secrets from Lauren she was my oldest friend and my rock when things go wrong. I had to tell her so for the adjoining half an hour I rain cats and dogsed my give awayt out I told her everything about capital of South Dakota and prick and the engagement recoil. Well he sounded re anyy upset now I love why, what ar you passage to do. She sounded genuinely reprehensible for me. I am just sledding to turn up at his flat and try to talk him round I love him Lauren, it has always been him I was happy with Pierre sure, solely he was always in the back of my mind. I am never matchless to pour out my spunk merely I couldnt service of process myself.Lauren offered me her spare bedroom to stay at her house, which is less than a mile away from nicks so it would be stainless.I wake up as I construe out the window and clear just see the sky through with(predicate) with(predicate) all the buildings thither is a deep blue sky just like the day me and nick went on a weekend away the sky was like that all weekend I cant help but smile at all the good memories of me and nick.The time at the new forms the night nick and me presence got to developher I was all alone no one to kiss at midnight 4,3,2 I am going to look like such an idiot 1 nick suddenly appears from no where and kisses me a real kiss I had never been kissed the way he kissed me. There it is that all to familiar pinch when I intend of me and nick.Later that day I was in the local caf, all of a sudden Lauren made excuses for herself and left-hand(a) quickly as I watched her suffer out my eye wandered to the bar where nick was stickting I well spilled my coke I hadnt withal noticed him stick with in. What should I do I didnt deprivation to talk to him here and now I destinyed to be alone with him I couldnt just chicken out not after with child(p) up my relationship with Pierre and possibly my dream job. All of a sudden with out any notice nick turns his head he sees me I dont spang what to do I end up sitting their like an idiot pre tending not to notice him. To my surprise nick gets up and walks out.I nearly burst into part I knew that I agony nick but I didnt think he could not even bare to look at me anymore.When I get back to Laurens I tell her everything she has a great idea How about I ring nick and ask him if he wants some company tonight you turn up instead of me and explain how you love him. She was the best friend a girl could give birth I hold to the idea.In the hack on the way to nicks house I couldnt help but feel sick with nerves the way he had just blanked me as if he didnt even know me as if I meant nothing to him as if nothing had never happened between us I know I break him but he is the man I love, I would give up the wholly world for him.It takes me what 10 to15 minuets to smasher on the penetration suddenly my earphone rings I open my bag in such a hurry everything falls out onto the floor. I hear the latch on the accession turning I look up to see nick perfect(a) set ashore at me, I wonder is he going to slam the brink in my face but to my surprise he bends prevail over and starts picking all the contents of my handbag up as he passes it to me our eyes meet he holds my glance I cant breath thinking what I flummox through with(p) to this man how I lied to him how I hurt him so very much. We better go inside. He final ly records he hands my bag to me and opens the ingress permitting me in. why is he being so sedate about all this, what happened today in the caf? His flat is so nice his shinny leather sofa and his modern art that is so cool and laid back like himself, they order peoples house tells you most things about them when nick came to my flat their were dark lies in all of Pierres stuff.Nick I am so sorry I came here to explain everything I sound desperate but I cant help it.You hurt me. I know I was just starting time to get my life on track after I left you and then(prenominal) you walk back into my life and my whole world turns upside down and with one look at you I fall completely head over heels in love with you. Nick differentiates nothing he just sees at the floor he cant even bare to look at me. I didnt want to tell you about Pierre I knew it would wreck all our chances together. So you just lied to me, as if I meant nothing to you. He sounds hurtYou know I dont think you are nothing I think you are everything. I would never intentionally hurt you. A tear rolls down my cheek I suddenly realise how much I affirm hurt nick.I should lend. I go to get up and leave to my surprise nick jumps up he reaches for my arm to stop meWhy are you going? He around sounds desperate like I did earlier. I dont know I dont see how I can reverse what I nominate done and it is like a knife through my heart seeing the pain in your eyes the pain I have caused and it is in your eyes now as I try helplessly to try and explain what I have done to you. I can hardly see nick through tears. Nick reaches up and wipes my tears away, why is he being so nice I dont under behave. I love you Sarah even if you lied and even if you left me to go to nice I will always love you. But can you liberate me?Nick lets go of me he sits down on his cool leather sofa he puts his head in his hands. Let me explain myself, you see I had left you behind it took me at least a family to get over y ou, then one day Pierre walked into my office he was the new hombre he was so gorgeous and charming. Do I really have to hear about you and Pierre. He says almost in disgust, am I digging myself a hole but I have to tell him everything. alone listen to me no more lies, I never fancy I would find love over again it wasnt the love we shared but my life had to go on me and Pierre were happy the night earlier I saw you he proposed if I had known I was going to see you again I would have called everything off right then and thither but I thought I was never going to see you again I thought you had moved on and made a new life of your own. I was trying my best to make nick see that I didnt purposely try to hurt him. I understood all that, I just cant understand why you lied cause I asked you if you had a sheik and you lied straight to my face, I actually remember seeing the ring on your finger and thinking nothing of it thinking that it was your right hand or something. He looked so tiered and fed up. Did you take the ring off? he asks, I cant lie to him not now even as much as Id like to I just cant. Yes but again I can explain you asked me if I had a boyfriend so I took the ring off hoping you hadnt already noticed, I know you want to know why because I love you and wanted to see I cant get out the course and when I do they sound all wrong. To see what? he is starting to get annoyedTo see if we ever had a chance together. I am nearly in tears again Dont cry please. He sounds concerned How can I not cry I am trying to undo the mess I have done, I have said I am sorry I cant say anymore I have exposit the way I feel, but I now am asking you what you think I cant help but ask I know it sounds egotistic but I am giving loads and getting nothing back this was it truth time when I had to know what my future with nick was going to be. I said earlier that I still love you. He seems kind of distance not to sure of what he is utter. But can you forgive me nick I n eed to know. I have to know I cant bare it nick is the type of guy not to let you know what he is thinking even if I know him as well as I do. I forgive you, but you have hurt me. I nearly burst into tears with happiness, we both catch each otherwises gaze and in those blue eyes my happiness is restored. Nick stands up he comes right up to me and wraps those warm and protective arms around me. Ring, ring nicks phone is ringing, I cant believe it who could it be, it is nearly half ten at night. Who could that be? I have to ask I dont know.Ring, ring Arent you going to answer it then. Nick walks over and picks up his phone to see who is calling to my surprise he switches his phone off without even say it. Who was it? Oh no-one, I have more important stuff here and now. Nick takes me by the hand and sits me down on the sofa, I am expecting him to sit next to me, to my horror he gets down on one knee and produces this jewellery box, he opens it and in there is the most perfect ring in the world. I know it isnt the coat of Pierres ring No, no it is perfect. I think you know the question I am going to ask but I am going to ask it anyway, Sarah will you marry me. I look down into those perfect blue eyes. I think you know the answer, yes. I shout it so loud, nick puts the ring on my finger, then jumps up and lifts me up spinning me around he starts to slow down just as he is move me on the floor he leans in and kisses me a real kiss a nick kiss, my nick.I ulterior discovered that nick had bought the ring in nice and had come for a job interview so he could live with me in nice. I cant wait to tell Lauren I am so excited, I walk back to Laurens it is such a clear and perfect night the stars are so bright and clear. Lauren you will never guess what has happened I feel like I cant get the words out fast enough. What? she sounds confused and worried Are you alright? I am the best, you know how I was going to nicks, well when I got there my phone rang and he opened th e door and I was scrambling So you and nick got back together then. She sounds weird and not her usual self. Not just that he asked me to marry him. I have to scream No way, oh my god I dont believe it she sounds so surprised I think I am going to bed. She says, what the hell I wanted to stay up most of the night planning it. Oh what, dont you want to help me with ideas. No I am so tired, but we will talk in the morning. She gives me a faded smile and goes off to bed. I cant possibly eternal rest now so I deicide to go back to nicks.I dont bother to buzz because someone is coming out of the building, as I reach out to knock on nicks door it opens and out walks Lauren in tears. What the hell are you doing here and why are you repetitive. I say confused. Lauren wait I can explain nick walks out after Lauren but stops dead when he sees me. Lauren what is the matter. I look at nick for an answer but he is staring at the ground, what is going on? I want to know I thought she said she was going to bed. Why dont you let nick explain, let nick explain everything. Lauren runs off in tears. I have no idea what is going on Nick what the hell is going on, why is Lauren clamant, why was she even here? I dont understand any of this. We need to talk, lets go inside. Nick walks into the flat I follow behind him, when I get into his flat there is a smashed glass on the floor. What has happened let me clear it up. I walk over to clear it up Just leave it, I need to tell you something. He sounds guilty and worried. Nick what is going on, first Lauren comes out of your flat instant(a) then there is a smashed glass on the floor and now you are looking guilty and asking to talk to Me. am I being paranoid? You might want to sit down I have to tell you something. What nick tell me now dont give me all this crap about sitting down tell me. Lauren was crying because she didnt want you and me to get married. What, why? I dont understand. Because she loves me. I dont believe it he d oesnt look like he is imposition I look into his eyes he is relative the truth nick never lies not to me. Suddenly it all makes sense when nick walked into the caf this morning how Lauren walked out and why she didnt want to talk about my conjugal union plans. Why would she be in love with you? I cant believe I am asking this and I try to not to sound like I want to know but the question has to be asked. Because, we had a thing What do you mean a thing? he better not be saying what I think he is saying. Me and Lauren together. Youre not giving me enough information, what the hell are you trying to say here? I cant believe what he is trying to tell me. Me and Lauren we had a thing together, right after you left. I dont believe what you are saying, how long for? I feel like I want to scream. Nick whispers something but I cant quite here him. Dont whisper I need to hear this. Two days the same time as you and Pierre were together. Pierre you didnt even know, whereas my best friend . You slept with my best friend, dont even try to get out of it and you leave me rest on the prom in nice crying my eyes out because I got engaged while you are sleeping with my best friend who I have known and trusted for over ten familys. I am nearly in tears and I feel pathetic but I am angry, angry at being so stupid not to see it and angry at nick for making me feel bad and guilty when he has been doing just the same but worse. Im sorry, I can explain give me a chance like I gave you a chance earlier. He sounds desperate and upset. I look over to him he has tears in those big blue eyes he stands up and walks over to me. You had gone and Lauren understood what I was going through so we became friends and one night we got really really drunk and one thing led to anotherSo you slept together at least me and Pierre were in a stable relationship. I am so mad I am crying in anger. Nick reaches out to wipe my tears away but I push his hand away. Dont touch me, how could you and you blamed me for getting engaged and you, you were I cant even say the words suddenly a thought comes into my head. appear a minute when I spoke to Lauren on the phone last night on the plane she said that she had seen you in the last twenty quaternity hours that means you slept with Lauren after you had seen me didnt you. I am really crying now. Didnt you I scream at him he looks up with tears in his eyes and nods his head. You bastard. I run over to him and hit him again and again I am like those sad and depressed woman in the movies but I cant help it nick is holding me down and trying to hug me. Get off me. I am crying so so much, I can musical note nick his gorgeous smell, nick is still trying to hug me I give up we just stand there holding each other for what seems like hours after a while nick speaks.Let me explain just give me that much of a chance. He sounds like he is crying I look up to see that he is, I nod and sit down on the sofa to listen I dont want to hear this but I want to know I have to know. You had just gone and Lauren was there the first time we slept together we were drunk, then it became a unwavering thing. I look away as tears spill out my eyes I cant take it but Ive got to know, nick lifts my head up and looks me right in the eyes, he is nearly crying as well. I knew I couldnt have you, so Lauren was the closest thing to you, what me and Lauren had was like a drop in the ocean compared to us, Lauren was growing more and more attached but all I wanted was you, before I knew it me and Lauren had been doing it for two years and she just wasnt you so I decided to come and get you when I got there you were with Pierre. He gets up and walks into the kitchen, I follow him when I get into the kitchen he has his back to me I swear he just wiped a tear away from his eye he turns to me and looks into my eyes. Sarah I love you. But can I forgive you? That is up to you, what me and Lauren did is horrible and I will never forgive myself. I dont k now I have to think this through until then I think you should have this. I slide off mine and nicks engagement ring I reach out to give it to him but he refuses to take it so I put it on the granite worktop and leave.Where should I go I cant go to Laurens I defiantly cant go to nicks.Knock knock it is taking ages for them to answer after what seems like hours later the door opens. Mum I burst into tears Sarah what has happened come in what has happened. So I tell her everything right from the start the two engagement rings, Pierre, nice, Lauren and nick. By the time my story has finished it is beginning to get light. What should I do mum I dont know what to do. First you should get some sleep then we will talk about it. She smiles at me. It is weird sleeping in my old room so many times I cried myself to sleep in this bed, when dad left, when granddad died, when I failed my GCSEs, the night before I left for nice and left nick behind. I get up to the smell of home(a) when I go dow nstairs mum is sitting in her usual spot I remember as I child whenever she had to think something through she would sit their and no one was allowed to disturb her for hours. Hey how did you sleep? She pats the spot next to her I go and sit with her. Not well, I kept thinking about nick and how he is, I did try to stop thinking about him but he just kept coming back into my mind.I know sweetie it is horrible. What should I do mum? My advice is, Lauren is the main one to blame I am not saying nick is innocent in all this but he was looking for a replacement of you, whereas Lauren knew full well what she was doing and lied to you every time she spoke to you. Still I dont know what to do. Go and talk to nick and if you love him give it one last try I am not saying it will be easy.So I took mums advice.I press the buzzer out of doors nicks flat, so many things are running through my head I dont know what is going to happen I dont even know weather to forgive him or weather I can forgi ve him. Hello Its me, can I talk to you. He buzzes me in without saying another word, when the lift doors open he is standing by his door wearing boxers and a t-shirt. I was drowsy I wasnt expecting you to come back. He looks really tiered and upset I cant look him straight in the eyes just yet. You better come in. he walks in leaving the door open behind him when I come into the flat I find him in his bedroom sitting on the end of the bed, he looks up at me I didnt get much sleep after you left I seemingly feel asleep, how have you been? he looks concerned I didnt sleep much every time I tried to sleep I just kept thinking about you. I look at nick and ask myself how can I still love him after what he is done to me and if I was being honest with myself I dont actually know the answer. bum I ask you one thing? I say curiously Anything but are you sure you want to hear it? It isnt about you and Lauren. I say Ok then what is it? he looked surprised did he want me to ask about him a nd Lauren or was their more he hadnt told me, that he had left out hoping I wouldnt know maybe I was just being paranoid it was hard to tell this whole lie was so unexpected. If you were sleeping with Lauren nick looks away shamed When you came to nice and found out about me and Pierre how come you were so mean to me when you were doing the same with Lauren? it is a harsh question but it has to be asked. Because you obviously had strong feelings for Pierre, I dont know maybe the thought of you even liking someone else also maybe the fact that you lied to me. He sounds annoyed at that. How can he be annoyed at me I didnt sleep his best friend did I? Why are you getting annoyed at me for lying. I sound like a spoilt childI dont know? Well I suggest you find out, youre the one who told me after I agreed to marry you. Youre the one who let me find out when your fianc turned up when I was topless just about to kiss you. Nick stands up, I cant believe him. Oh that is low even for someone that sleeps with my best friend when he says he was madly in love with me. I say spitefully Dont you hardihood for a second say I wasnt in love with you. So why didnt you come and get me? I did. What three years later, three years to late. I am yelling now thank god it is the middle of the day and not the night. What did you expect me to come after you? Yes. I say almost in a whisper, Nicks face instantly changes What? Yes, I wanted you to come and get me but you never showed up. Nick comes closer to me I never knew. You didnt have to know were werent cypherd to know. I turn away from nick, I have come here to try and sort things out and end up saying things that were just stupid thoughts ages ago and they dont even help now.I cant think of anything to say and nick is just looking at me, I seriously have no idea what to do I want to tell him so much I love him but I just cant not now. I look at nick hard to see what he is thinking looking into his eyes I just cant work it out. S uddenly I thought crosses my mind. I need to go. What, why I thought we need to talk. Does he think this is it. I have to speak to Lauren see what she has to say and pick up my stuff. Why are you going, are you coming back. I dont know, I just have to talk to her to see what she has to say about all of this.I leave the flat as I am pressing the bottom for the lift door to close nick suddenly comes out of his flat and holds the lift door open. Promise you will come back and talk to me. He saysI dont know what to say I have to hear Laurens side of the story before I make any decisions. Even if you cant forgive me at least come and say goodbye.I nod and nick lets go of the lift door I look at him as the door closes I look at his light brown ruffled hair, his perfectly tanned skin, his strong hands, and those perfect sea blue eyes.I really dont want to see or hear Laurens side of the story but it has to be done I suppose I owe it to our friendship or something like that.I dont bother to knock or buzz because being one of her oldest friends I have a key it is, seeing as it is a Sunday she is sure to be in. when I walk in she turns around and smiles Sarah where have you been did you stop over at nicks. She winks at me, Why is she acting normal when she knows what is going on. Isnt that more your style I know I sound like a fifteen year old but before I can stop myself I have said it. Lauren sighs So he told you Well what did you expect him to do not tell me? Oh I dont know, I didnt expect you to even come after him. What you knew. Of course, all of a sudden I was dumped for you. now she sounds like a fifthteen year old Lauren you can try to match you and nick to me and nick but as nick said your relationship was like a drop in the ocean compared to ours. So dont you dare compare, I am here for one thing only and that is to hear your pathetic excuse of a side of the story. I have to stay strong and not cry I try to remember revenge is a dish best served cold, cold li ke Laurens heart has to be. Sarah dont be like this. She sounds desperate So come on then I want to get this over with lets here it from start to finish the whole feeble excuse for an affair.Sarah dont be like this. Why not. I shout at her I hate being like this but I am so mad at her.Ok, Ill tell you just after you left nick was really upset so I went round to cheer him up and we got really really drunk and ended up in bed together and from then it become a regular thing. She looks away sheepish of herself exactly like Nick. So what is your excuse then nick had a reasonable one. I ask impatiently What I just told you about me and nick. No you told me what happened I want an excuse for sleeping with my ex boyfriend when you knew I still liked him. I know I am being really cheating(prenominal) on her but she deserves it. You knew I always liked nick I knew he was just using me because he couldnt have you. Is that it. I say in disgust Is that your excuse cause if it was I wasnt buyi ng it. I shake my head at her and walk into my room get my stuff and go to leave as I am getting to the door Lauren runs after me. You left nick it was over cant you let someone else have him I shouldnt be ashamed of what we had or still have. What do you mean still have? He told me he loved me. She says looking pleased with herself, I look at her with tears in my eyes. How could you Lauren I thought you were my best friend and your just a desperate I stop myself Go on Sarah its not like you to not finish saying what you like. Lauren says sneering at me. I wouldnt want to waste my breath. I walk out leaving her standing there.When I am outside Laurens I am trying to get a taxi as I begin to give up and start walking a taxi slows down inside it is nick he opens the window and tells me to get in. Where to then? The taxi driver asks, I look at nick for an answer Just drive us around for a while we need to have a talk without one of us running away. The taxi driver grunts a bit before agreeing and we start to drive nick leans over and closes the hatch. Nick what are you doing here? I ask I never trusted Lauren, I had to come and get you so she doesnt feed you a pack of lies. I say nothing and just stay silent Well come on then tell me what she said I know she has said something. How can he tell that by just looking at me. I cant stand this I need more time to think so I reach over and open the hatch and tell the taxi driver to stop. She said you loved her. I say as I scramble out of the taxi with my bags I begin to walk off all I can hear is Nick shouting my name.Sarah wait. He shouts from somewhere behind me Just leave me alone I shout back people are stating to stare but I dont care.Nick is right behind me when he catches up with me he stops me and spins me round so I am facing him I didnt realise he was so close to me he is right behind me. I dont love Lauren I never have I like her but I would never love her. So why did you tell her that you did? I look up at nick he is not going to reply so I carry on talking. I can take the fact that you have been sleeping with her for the past two years but express her you love her when you say you love me, I am sick of this Nick all the lies and dirty little secrets. I look across the street at all the people walking in and out of the shops. Did you tell Pierre you love him? nick asks Of course I did. I reply, this is it right here me and nick standing in the middle of a busy London street this is when I realise the future. It looks like we are both in love. I say to nick, he begins to smile I raise my hand for a taxi But it looks like we are in love with the wrong people. I say as tears spill out of my eyes I reach up and kiss nick on the head Goodbye nick.I get in the taxi Heathrow airport please.I can hardly see nick through tears Sarah dont do this I love you. Nick shouts from the pavageI cant bear to look at nick Just drive please, I say my voice wobbling cause I am crying so much.This has t o be the hardest thing to do all I can see is nicks face when I got in the taxi the way he looked at me. I am sitting at gate waiting to be called wondering if I am doing the right thing. Could people sitting in employment class please come to the desk with your boarding cards and passports ready. The airhostess was saying into the microphone this was it all over again leaving nick but this time it mat a hundred times worse. I have to do this I am strong enough to do this I know I am. So why am I still sitting here?I get up and walk over to the airhostess giving her my boarding pass and passport, she smiles brilliantly at me all I can manage is a brief smile I feel so rude but I am not in the mood to be polite. She hands my passport back and lets me through to go down to plane my stilettos are killing me and all I want to do is kick them off and run, run into nicks arms and forget all my troubles but I just cant not now not ever again. As I reach the aeroplane I am almost in tears again luckily no one has noticed, I get on to the plane and into my seat all I can think about is nick nothing else everything around me seems to remind me of nick like the guy sitting next to me got out his briefcase and I happened to notice his card that clearly explained that he was a lawyer like nick and the lady in front of me asking for a martin without the olive just like nick would ask, I keep telling myself I am being paranoid. After what feels like days I am home.I open all the windows in my flat to let out all the heat it is nearly midnight and still boiling, I try to get some sleep but just cant I keep thinking about nick and wondering what he is doing. I decide that I am not going to sleep at all and end up watching dirty dancing the best romantic film if only love could really be that simple even though her dad doesnt like them together he accepts it in the end and they dirty jump dance together. I wouldnt normally cry at the end but after everything that has happene d I cant help but cry. I end up falling asleep in front of the TV all I can see in my dreams is nick screaming my name but none one can hear him I wake up to the my phone ringing no wait not the phone the door bell I look up at the clock it is 3.30 who on earth could it be. I stagger to the door still half asleep yawning I open the door and standing in a white checked shirt and jeans is nick.I cant speak I dont know what to say I look around for a confabulation starter and end up catching sight of myself in a mirror I look terrible I am wearing and big t-shirt and bed socks my hair is all messed up. I look up at nick and he is just looking into my eyes. I have been shouting your name for ages havent you heard me? he says in a gentle voice. I was asleep, sorry. Why am I apologising he shouldnt be here. Nick why are you here? I ask Because I am not going to let it end like this. Nick walks into my apartment and sits down on the sofa, I close the door behind him and end up sitting on my dinning room table cause my apartment is open plan you dont have to sit on one particular chair I can sit anywhere. Do you want anything to drink? I ask politely No, I want you.I have no idea how to reply to that so I just end up sitting their not being able to think of anything to say luckily I dont have to say anything. I know you dont want it to end like this, and I am not going to let it end like this. How do you know what I want? I ask getting angryBecause I love you and if you love someone you know every little thing about them. Like what? I askLike the way they take their coffee, their shoe size, what their favourite movie is or when they are lying or unsure about something. So do you know all of that? I challenge him You dont like coffee or tea, your shoe size is 6 which you hate cause you think it is to big, your favourite movie is dirty dancing probably cause of Patrick Swayze and I do know when you are lying cause I knew the minuet after you left that you were lying. I get out and walk on to the balcony I dont know what to say? By this time nick has followed me. I love this view. Nicks say looking out on to the sea and the moon. You have seen it before. True but I didnt pay much attention to it last time all of my attention was you, it looks like you have done really well for yourself. Well running a billion euro cosmetic company does have its upsides. I laughnicks says nothing and just smiles